The journey through fear was like hiking up a hill. I'd experience real, tormenting fear over a specific thing. I'd pray hrough it. I'd confess the Word. I'd cry. I'd be awake at night paralyzed by lies, though they looked so real. I'd talk to my husband. He'd pray. I'd look at the Word again. And, somewhere along the way, victory would come in the form of peace. I could move on. It didn't paralyze me anymore. It didn't matter what symptoms would say. It didn't matter then. The thing some people don't realize is how real the devil is more than happy to make your fears.
When I was pregnant with Sweet Pea, we made it through the halfway ultrasound. We got a good report, she was healthy. Then, a day or so later, we got a voicemail telling me that I should call the specialist's office. I never talked to this specialist before. I didn't understand why my doctor had referred me to a specialist when I just had a great ultrasound. I couldn't get a hold of anyone from my doctor's office after hours that day to find out what was going on. And, satan had a heyday in my mind. It was a long night. In the morning, I eventually found out that my ultrasound results had accidentally been sent to the specialist. That's it. It was nothing. Satan is a pro at taking nothing and turning into something, a big something. That's fear.
All along the way, I felt like God was holding my hand. I was a timid child, something I'm not normally in my walk with God. I'd always been so confident and sure. Now, God helped me conquer one fear, walk in peace and tackle the next thing. That's faithfulness. I'm thankful that He is.
