Despite my best efforts, I am often tired.
Despite my best efforts, I sometimes wonder if I am being effective what I do.
This morning, I awoke and snuggled in my chair with my tea, journal, and Bible. It was chilly and I felt like sleeping, not slaying another day.
My thoughts meandered to my teens and twenties and suddenly, I realized,
"I am doing what I wanted to do."
...a dream that I feel God gave me.
I was suddenly overwhelmed with gratitude that I could be here, doing this.
I am grateful, though I don't always feel grateful.
When I dwelt on this privilege, I breathed,
"Thank You, Lord, that I GET to do this.
Thank You, Lord, that I can stay at home with the girls.
Thank You, Lord, that I can teach them.
Thank You, Lord, that we can be together every day.
Thank You, Lord, that I GET to be here."
This privilege is such a blessing to me.
The perspective was fresh in my mind, the same principle I was taught as a child ~
"You don't HAVE to; you GET to."
We mamas may be weary, but we GET to be here. That's a beautiful gift that weariness can eclipse if we let it.
The reminder to be thankful that I GET to be here shifted everything around in my perspective today.
I'm still marveling at the blessing of getting to be here today.